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It was all about how I loved you,

and then, I’m grateful.

You gave me the taste of ease and made me sit still.

Even with all the responsibility stacked on top of one another, I still want some peace. 

Everything went so fast that I don’t even have to think.

It happened, not once, that I just stopped trying.

Fickleness was my bestfriend and I faked every smiling.

Pfft, I stopped crying then all I wanted was to fry my mind...

and also then, I told everyone everything was fine.

I battled the war within myself.

I struggled it all by myself.

I just wanted to lead the normal curve,

because I loved you that I didn’t recognise my own worth.

Now, I hated you.

I am still hating you.

Now that I hate you, everything seems to be much simpler.

Easier, with Him guiding me through, I’m much happier.

I pray that this going to be this way and better.

I love Him, I love myself and I want to love my future.

I want to think bright like the Sun and so cool like the ocean. 

I want to do things I love and not be drowned with the motion.

I’ve been that person everyone loved.

I’ve been that person everyone hated.

This time, I am still the person you have known.

I am still the same person, just that I have grown.

I thank Him everyday for loving me at my worst. 

Eyes wide open now and it’s not the first. 

All you have done was make me look like a fool, 

and it was because I loved you that I am grateful.

I’m thanking you, but no thank you.

..... .... ..... .... ..... .... ..... .... ..... .... ..... .... .....

It was all about how I loved you,

and then, I’m grateful.

You gave me the taste of ease and made me sit still.

Even with all the responsibility stacked on top of one another, I still want some peace. 

Everything went so fast that I don’t even have to think.

It happened, not once, that I just stopped trying.

Fickleness was my bestfriend and I faked every smiling.

Pfft, I stopped crying then all I wanted was to fry my mind...

and also then, I told everyone everything was fine.

I battled the war within myself.

I struggled it all by myself.

I just wanted to lead the normal curve,

because I loved you that I didn’t recognise my own worth.

Now, I hated you.

I am still hating you.

Now that I hate you, everything seems to be much simpler.

Easier, with Him guiding me through, I’m much happier.

I pray that this going to be this way and better.

I love Him, I love myself and I want to love my future.

I want to think bright like the Sun and so cool like the ocean. 

I want to do things I love and not be drowned with the motion.

I’ve been that person everyone loved.

I’ve been that person everyone hated.

This time, I am still the person you have known.

I am still the same person, just that I have grown.

I thank Him everyday for loving me at my worst. 

Eyes wide open now and it’s not the first. 

All you have done was make me look like a fool, 

and it was because I loved you that I am grateful.

I’m thanking you, but no thank you.